My most memorable night dive was also one of the worst dives I've ever done.
It was shortly after I had taken my GUE Fundamentals class, and I was avid to get out and practice. My instructor, Steve, was running the occasional Wednesday evening dive at a local site, and he had sent out an e-mail that he was doing one that week. Two dives were planned, one at 3:30 and one at 6:00. It was January, and 6 pm in Seattle is pitch dark at that time of year, so I was planning on attending the first dive, until I saw the list of people coming. They were ALL far, far more experienced than I was, and I was severely intimidated. But I squared my shoulders and told myself that everyone has to be a beginner, and the purpose of the dives was to get out and polish skills and learn, and I had as much a right to be there as anyone else.
It was a bad beginning, and nothing got better. I arrived at the site, to find that one of the scheduled divers had been delayed, and we were waiting for him. I thought I should simply repack my gear and go home, but I decided to play it by ear, and see just how low the sun was when he arrived.
It was low. I should have gone home, but I had all my gear out and ready to put on, so I thought I would give it the old college try.
The plan was to get in the water, go down to about 15 feet, and do a round of air-sharing drills. I was assigned a buddy with about 300 dives (to my 65 or so) who was in double tanks and had some technical training. I was feeling very unsure of myself, and it only got worse when we tried to do our drills, and I could not maintain buoyancy in the dark water. Up I went, and up my buddy went, until he actually went over backwards. We surfaced, and I could tell my buddy was frustrated and furious. The instructor came up to us and asked, "What's going on, guys?" I offered, "I'm having trouble, and Charles is very frustrated with me." The instructor looked at us dispassionately and said, "Well, you don't HAVE to do this. You can just go diving. But this is what WE do; we start the dive with drills." Of course, at that point, I was going to get the damned drill done or die trying, and we went back down and muddled through it.
Off we went on the tour portion of the dive. I was rattled and shaken and not very happy, and I got disoriented in the dark and had buoyancy issues, and ended up hanging onto a piece of structure, trying to get myself back in order. The end of the dive couldn't come soon enough, and I was deeply relieved when the other team signaled that it was time to ascend.
They were going to shoot a bag, and we were all going to do a stepped ascent, stopping every ten feet. Once the line was there as a reference, we started up -- at which point I found out that I could not read my computer well enough to see my depth in the dark. (It had been okay earlier in the dive, when it was just dusky, but once it got pitch-black, I was out of luck.) I drifted off the line, and found myself in inky black water, with no visual reference at all, and no depth gauge. I started yo-yoing violently, and my buddy was eventually completely overwhelmed, and the instructor came in and physically controlled me and my ascent, and got me to the surface . . . at which point my weight belt fell off.
I had to tell the instructor, who sighed (thinking, I am sure, "Why did I ever get involved with this woman?"). And then I informed him that it hadn't gone to the bottom, but was caught on my crotch strap (a nice thing about crotch straps). So he had my lie on my back with my legs spread, and he dove underneath me, and caught the weight belt and rearranged it. All the time I was thinking that about the only thing I could have thought of to make the dive worse than it was, was to have my instructor fumbling between my legs to fix my gear . . .
I got out of the water, and walked up to the sea wall and sat down, and desperately tried to control my tears. My very sweet dive buddy sat down with me and talked pleasantly about his father and growing up and trying to do things well. I appreciated his kindness, and the kindness of the instructor who helped me get my gear back to the car.
I could not even exchange pleasantries with my buddy of that night for several years, until he asked to attend an event I arranged at my house. At that event, I spoke to him about that night's dive . . . and he did not remember it at all. An experience that had made me avoid him for years had not even registered on his radar. I was truly nonplussed.
I have since learned to love night diving, and even learned to do, and enjoy, night skills dives.