Given your other thread, my advice would be to forget your goal of becoming an instructor already by the end of this winter. In my (not so humble) opinion you just won't have time to collect enough diving experience, under different conditions, to be a competent instructor.
Take a refresher, take AOW, and dive, dive, dive. Have fun diving, building your experience base. Take Rescue, take other courses if you want to. Collect experience, expand your experience gradually, and re-consider your goal of becoming an instructor when you have logged more dives than I have. Remember that even divemaster (a prerequisite for instructor) requires minimum 40 logged dives to enroll and minimum 60 logged dives to finish. And if those dives are under similar and benign conditions, you'll be doing both yourself and your students a disservice.
I will like to thank all of you guys, because you made me realise that probably rushing in becoming an Instructor it's wrong, I wanted to do that because I know that if you are just a Divemaster it's extremely hard to find a job and I want to make of diving my job asap but at the same time I start to think now that if I don't do the things in the right order and in the right time nobody will give me a job because I won't have so much experience to be a good instructor, so the best is becoming Divemaster and dive, dive, dive, make a lot of experience, lots of dives and then when I will feel ready make the final step to become Instructor...
In your case, however, you *do* need a diving instructor and someone who is patient and "clicks" with you.
Once again, the good news is that you can fix this.
I know I can do it, I know all the theoretical part, I can do it with a snorkel or under the shower, but since I had that problem when I am surrounded by water I just get very nervous and afraid, I have this block in my mind and the other day I couldn't do it even at 1,5m with my Instructor in front of me, I guess I just need to relax and practice, practice, practice until it becomes natural and I will feel relaxed even if it happens by accident, to don't get a panic attack
and solve it with calm, the only thing I'm afraid of is that I'm never gonna get over it completely and that even if I will do it in a safe situation I will always remain afraid if it happens in a dangerous one.
@Storker you are a very good at this, you should be an Instructor if you are not one already, because you know a lot about diving and you explain things in a very nice way, your words helped me a lot and not only on this thread.
I know that I should keep calm and just think that I can breathe but in this moment is just very difficult for me to overcome this stupid fear that I never had before... I feel so sad!
You put me in a calm situation (say kneeling on the sand) and get me to do a fill and clear, while I don't panic, my stress level goes up. stupid really, but it's a block I cant get past
In this moment for me it's the same
Allesandro, please don't be in such a hurry. Dive and have fun. Increase your knowledge and skills by diving. Enjoy yourself. Push yourself in a slow and controlled manner until you feel confident in all your skills. Then you will be in a better position to consider being an instructor. It's very serious and a big responsibility to take others under you wing and show them the wonders beneath.
I think you are totally right, thank you so much
@Dizzi Lizzi
