The booze is never a crutch. I just mixed some rum into the peanutbutter and banana mixture so it wasn't much.Queen:Hi Gary,
Just a tip from someone who USED to do the job...when the order of your remedy changes (shots first or only) walk away. I appreciate the pain you're feeling and can say I waited too long after the remedy stopped including a sandwich to quit. It's a miserable, hard, painful job with infrequent bright spots. Do it for a time then let someone else do it so it won't eat you up. I stopped diving for a long time time afterwards as I had lost my joy for the sport (too many nasty memories) but now it's better and the memories are much dimmer - that happens but it takes time.
Don't mean to be a downer but wanted you to know you're not alone.
Out of 42 diving years I have done this for all but 7 years. I don't use the bottle. But thanks for the heads up because some do and that leads to the path of self destruction.
Gary D.