shakeybrainsurgeon
Contributor
TSandM:Haven't you had that experience in the OR? When everything looks like it's going to you-know-where in a handbasket, and you have to keep telling yourself to be methodical and organized and it will all sort out?
Usually, my reptile brain is screaming incoherently, and my forebrain is working its way through available options. Luckily, I've had enough training that the forebrain usually wins.
Yes, when things went bad in the OR I would allow myself a brief interlude to flip out, then go into a "now what" mode... but they were clearly sequential. In this case, I vividly felt like I was two people at once, like the old "devil on one shoulder, angel on the other" scenario. You can't breath said the devil, oh yes you can, said the angel.
Incidentally, when struggling in the OR, I would sometimes think of the family in the waiting room who sat reading magazines and assuming everything was fine and I knew what I was doing... I once asked an airline pilot if that happened to him, that is, were there times when the passengers sat calmly eating peanuts, assuming all was in order, while he sat sweating out what to do next. He just smiled and said he would never admit it even if that happened.