I appreciate the honest insight you've given into your experience as a new diver. For a first dive in low visibility, the experience you had is not uncommon. You shouldn't be discouraged by this experience at all. If anything, you've been humbled by it, and it will most likely make you a better, and safer diver in the future. A humbling experience like that is a good thing. Sadly, alot of divers who aren't humble don't live to tell about there experiences.
I'm concerned that so many divers who replied to my post missed the point of what I was saying. I witnessed a couple of Instructors about a year ago free-diving down to the air bell at Blue Grotto with their students looking on. (laughing at their behavior) After witnessing this irresponsible behavior, I mentioned it to the manager of the facility as I was leaving. One of the Instructors involved was an Instructor/Instructor, plus was a high ranking member (board member if you will) over one of the most popular dive agencies in the world. The manager at the facility couldn't believe his ears when I told him who did it. He asked was I sure that it was him, and three of the other divers in the shop that were diving that day quickly agreed that it was him. This guy was doing all this in front of a group of brand new students. He was strutting around like a rooster bragging about how deep he could free dive, and how long he can hold his breath. This was one instance out of many I've seen. This past weekend I was diving at a quarry with about 40-50 divers. About 14 of them were students, and a dozen were Instructors, or Divemasters. Only one Instructor, and one divemaster was with the class, the rest where there for recreation. It was like roosterfest or something the way they were strutting around, telling stories of their ignorant behavior while diving, and acting as though they were 10 foot tall, and bullet proof while diving. Since I was working at the facility, I was ashamed for these students to witness this behavior. I made sure to go by the class later in the day, and tell them that, "see, this is a good example of what you don't want to become as a diver". They all just nodded their heads to agree, and whispered to me," those guys are Instructors/Divemasters?" (with a serious sound of disbelief in their voices) I couldn't lie, and nodded yes, as I dropped my head, and walked away.
The Instructor, divemaster that had the class there hurried to get done with their class, and get out of their as quickly as possible as to avoid any further exposure to the bad image that existed there. Can't say I blame them. I just don't understand how Dive Professionals, and technical divers can turn out to be so irresponsible as that. Especially in front of a group of students. Since they weren't doing anything other than setting a terrible example, we couldn't really do anything other than ask them to have a bit of respect for the class. One of the Instructors said, screw them, "I paid my admission to get in here just like they did. If they have a problem with me, they can leave."
This is a serious matter of ethics, and it's not an unusual case. I've been seeing more, and more of this macho crap every year, and it's simply unprofessional, and irresponsible behavior no matter how you slice it. Maybe Dive Professionals should have a code of ethics (standard of conduct) to agree to abide by. It might not make them abide by it, but it would certainly make them aware of the example in which they should be setting for others, especially students.
Dive humble~
"Splash"