Somehow, adding a wet suit, etc that you have never donned or worn before at all to the mix, just at your first OW dive is surely asking for trouble. A lot unnecessary stress was added to the mix for you.
Take the time to practice your skills in as close to the same conditions a you can. Obviously a pool is not going to be like diving the ocean in your area, but at least if you had the chance to have dived in the wet suit you will be adding one less thing to an already naturally stressful dive. My two kids really struggled to overcome the wet suit issue themselves during their OW training, because the rentals they trained in were never a good fit for them, but once they got a little practice in the pool under their belts in the hated wet suits, they did very well.
Keep trying. My gf was a very insecure beginning diver, and we kid that it took her 5 years, and 5 countries to get her certification, but when she failed to complete her OW the first time around, she went back and tried again. In a week or two now she expects to log her 100th dive, and is super excited about our upcoming trip to Australia later this winter.
Take the time to practice your skills in as close to the same conditions a you can. Obviously a pool is not going to be like diving the ocean in your area, but at least if you had the chance to have dived in the wet suit you will be adding one less thing to an already naturally stressful dive. My two kids really struggled to overcome the wet suit issue themselves during their OW training, because the rentals they trained in were never a good fit for them, but once they got a little practice in the pool under their belts in the hated wet suits, they did very well.
Keep trying. My gf was a very insecure beginning diver, and we kid that it took her 5 years, and 5 countries to get her certification, but when she failed to complete her OW the first time around, she went back and tried again. In a week or two now she expects to log her 100th dive, and is super excited about our upcoming trip to Australia later this winter.