Ok, so I've toyed with the idea of posting this as I'm not usually "scared". I've had it happen to me twice now over the last few years where I'm in the quarry, there's other people in the quarry just not exactly next to me. I go to look at something where it's eerie and dark and all of a sudden fear creeps up my spine and I can't do it. I look out into the abyss and I just can't do it. My brain tells me there's nothing there, I know there's nothing there, but fear gets the better of me and I swim the other direction. It's only happened when visibility was less than par. If someone's near me, I have no issues whatsoever.
The other day I was at the top of a wall looking down and I could not bring myself to go down it. The sun was setting, viz was ~ 10' or so, but I was losing light fast. This is really unusual for me as I'm not ever scared. I love being scared, scary movies, haunted houses with the kids, jump outs...but when I looked down that darn wall I felt fear, and it stopped me dead in my tracks. I lied to myself and said no we'll save that for another day, but it was fear.
So what do you do, does that go away at some point? Is there something I can do to not have that happen? I will say that I feel the fear, but I don't "react" to it, it's not like I fly back to the surface gasping for air, I just simply swim the other way.
To be honest, I get the same notion, although smaller, when I'm surface swimming and can't see the bottom. It's just something in me gets sceered! There's a part of me that likes it, but there's also a part of me that wants to be able to control this or be able to "dive" through it at least
Any / all suggestions welcome...... even if it's just to tell me I'm a pansy
The other day I was at the top of a wall looking down and I could not bring myself to go down it. The sun was setting, viz was ~ 10' or so, but I was losing light fast. This is really unusual for me as I'm not ever scared. I love being scared, scary movies, haunted houses with the kids, jump outs...but when I looked down that darn wall I felt fear, and it stopped me dead in my tracks. I lied to myself and said no we'll save that for another day, but it was fear.
So what do you do, does that go away at some point? Is there something I can do to not have that happen? I will say that I feel the fear, but I don't "react" to it, it's not like I fly back to the surface gasping for air, I just simply swim the other way.
To be honest, I get the same notion, although smaller, when I'm surface swimming and can't see the bottom. It's just something in me gets sceered! There's a part of me that likes it, but there's also a part of me that wants to be able to control this or be able to "dive" through it at least
Any / all suggestions welcome...... even if it's just to tell me I'm a pansy