Kerri,
I agree with the other posts - take it easy on yourself. If your stats on your profile are up to date, you're not even certified yet! If someone had asked me to dive in a meter of viz when I was new to the sport, I would have told them "Yeah right, buddy, what else do you want me to do???" There would have been no way! I remember one of my training dives in a lake and I almost panicked and had to force myself really bad to descend because I couldn't see the bottom! The viz in that case was actually not bad at all, much more than a meter for sure. In fact, viz that is that limited still freaks me out, over a hundred dives later. But the difference is, now I feel I can trust my skills and I have less of a hard time to stay calm. I dive relatively comfortably in 6 feet of viz, but less than that and I can tell I'm a little apprehensive. You'll get much much more comfortable as you dive more, so there is absolutely no need to stress out now. Heck, I'd say the mere fact that you even did go down in that limited viz at the stage of your career that you are in is damn impressive! Keep it up!