You've gotten some really great advice above from people who have been right where you are now.
Even after a couple hundred dives there are still things that are outside my comfort zone. When I asked an instructor friend of mine how to over come my anxiety he asked..."What are you afraid of...and what would you do if it happened" When I thought about it I was amazed that I already knew the answers of what to do.
In your case it is your mask coming off unexpectedly or a mouth piece breaking.....So what would you do? If your mask gets knocked off or flooded (which this rarely if ever happens) you try not to get water up your nose and you put it back on and clear it. If you get water up your nose while your mask if off, you are going to cough through your reg and blow out through your nose to stop any other water from getting up it, and then you are going to put the mask on and clear it.
Nobody is REAL comfortable with their mask off. I suggest the next time you go the pool to sit for a while in the shallow end, underwater, breathing through your reg with your mask off. That way you get used to how it feels and will help reduce your anxiety about it. You need to get to the point in the shallow end where if you get water up your nose your first instinct isn't to stand up, but until you get to that point at least in the shallow end you CAN "surface" and won't risk injury.
If your mouth piece breaks under water...again VERY rare occurrence. You may get a little choked. STOP, THINK.... look at the reg to see if it's broken(mouthpiece off etc.). If so reach for your secondary air source, breath.... and start a controlled accent.
What ever worst case scenario you have probably will never happen, but it is wise to mentally prepared for how you would react. This will make you a safer diver, and reduce your anxiety.
You are very wise to continue your pool work until you are comfortable, and you will not be asked to do anything in open water that you haven't gone over numerous times in the pool. Be sure if you are nervous on your check outs that you let your instructor know. Don't beat yourself up for being nervous either. It's ok to be a little nervous during check outs, just don't let it control you. You are going to do fantastic. Keep a positive attitude and pretty soon you'll be a veteran with 400 dives under their belt offering advice to the new grommets.
Even after a couple hundred dives there are still things that are outside my comfort zone. When I asked an instructor friend of mine how to over come my anxiety he asked..."What are you afraid of...and what would you do if it happened" When I thought about it I was amazed that I already knew the answers of what to do.
In your case it is your mask coming off unexpectedly or a mouth piece breaking.....So what would you do? If your mask gets knocked off or flooded (which this rarely if ever happens) you try not to get water up your nose and you put it back on and clear it. If you get water up your nose while your mask if off, you are going to cough through your reg and blow out through your nose to stop any other water from getting up it, and then you are going to put the mask on and clear it.
Nobody is REAL comfortable with their mask off. I suggest the next time you go the pool to sit for a while in the shallow end, underwater, breathing through your reg with your mask off. That way you get used to how it feels and will help reduce your anxiety about it. You need to get to the point in the shallow end where if you get water up your nose your first instinct isn't to stand up, but until you get to that point at least in the shallow end you CAN "surface" and won't risk injury.
If your mouth piece breaks under water...again VERY rare occurrence. You may get a little choked. STOP, THINK.... look at the reg to see if it's broken(mouthpiece off etc.). If so reach for your secondary air source, breath.... and start a controlled accent.
What ever worst case scenario you have probably will never happen, but it is wise to mentally prepared for how you would react. This will make you a safer diver, and reduce your anxiety.
You are very wise to continue your pool work until you are comfortable, and you will not be asked to do anything in open water that you haven't gone over numerous times in the pool. Be sure if you are nervous on your check outs that you let your instructor know. Don't beat yourself up for being nervous either. It's ok to be a little nervous during check outs, just don't let it control you. You are going to do fantastic. Keep a positive attitude and pretty soon you'll be a veteran with 400 dives under their belt offering advice to the new grommets.