Thanks for the advice..
I guess my biggest question is .... Do all of you out there that dive with your spouse have a unusually high level of stress and anxiety over worrying about your spouse? I mean,.. I cannot keep my eyes off of her because I worry so much about her safety... Its not that she is a bad diver or dangerous or anything... I just worry so about her so much I find myself bound up in knots.... I guess this just subsides with time and practice??
Samson-
Hi Samson,
I dive with my wife all the time, and yes I also have a higher than normal level of concern for her safety than what I probably would have for an instabuddy. It's only natural that we are afraid of seeing something bad happen to someone we love. That is not to say that I don't have concerns for safety with instabuddies but when you add loving someone into the mix it intensifies significantly.
One of the things that took us a long time to sort out is patience with one another and good clear communication, above and below the surface. In the beginning (edit: and I sometimes still have to be reminded a little) I tended to expect the same level of performance from her than what I knew I was capable of and it took me a while, and several heated surface floating arguments, to learn that I cannot expect her to do things my way all the time or even to do them at the same intensity that I can. Not that she was less capable but more because I was in better shape fitness wise than her at the time.
Get her some decent fins as Walter suggested. Start a decent exercise program with her, focusing specifically on her needs for stronger calf exercises for improving finning power. Don't neglect the cardio workouts either. I have recently discovered an excellent book from another thread here on SB for diving fitness and I'd highly recommend getting yourself a copy (see
Better fitness means better diving.) and working through it systematically. Once you know you are both in good physical shape for diving more rigorous conditions you will find that you're more confident in both your as well as her skills. Improving your bodies' cardio fitness levels also has the nice benefit of lowering anxiety and panic levels because the body is able to energize itself much more efficiently under stressful conditions.
The rest of it is psychological. Slowing down, relaxing, calming down sometimes takes a conscious effort to do. Try to figure out exactly what it is that you are concerned about, are your concerns realistic/justified, are there things you can do to mitigate them (exercise, better gear, equipment streamlining/configuration)? Try to figure out the thought patterns that lead up to your panic and worry thought spirals; learn to recognise the thought habits as they start and learn to redirect them positively to avoid falling back into the worry spirals.
A lot of it has to do with comfort, confidence, and ability. Comfort has to do with gear, exposure protection etc. Confidence has to do with experience, proper training, and frequent diving; and ability has to do with physical and emotional preparation and development. Balance these three and you should be a lot closer to finding a solution for your worrywortiness (justified and unjustified).
Edit: Just remember, you most likely go diving to relax and enjoy nature right? Your'e not doing BUDS training so don't make it harder that what it needs to be. Make careful choices about dive locations, times, etc. Go out and have fun.
Good luck.