Hi everyone
I'm new here and quite new to diving. I'd really appreciate some feedback on something that's bothered me for some time. Basically, I have an irrational fear of running out of air at depth. To conquer it & push thru it, I decided to get my open water certification. I'm also partially blind which I suppose doesn't really make me feel all that comfortable underwater. The first time I went for certification, I failed b/c I panicked. I took extra lessons after that.
Got my certification eventually & my buddy - who was a much more experienced diver than I - signed us up for ocean 2 dives. A 40' & a 60'. Probably very tame by others standards but I was terribly frightened about it, which my buddy knew b/c I told him. Plus I was shaking. He knew my concerns & fears, they were not news to him. He promised to hold my hand during the dive. The instructor briefed us on the boat, all divers hopped off & went down the rope to the dive site. They waited at the bottom for us. My buddy & I were the last off the boat. I went down the rope first, buddy was behind me.
Now. Please note, I am not trying to criticise anyone here, nor bag them out. All I'm trying to do is to ascertain 'what should have been done?' in your opinions ... b/c to this day, I still don't know.
So. 20' down the rope, my buddy tapped on my tank, got my attention, pointed to his head & swam to the surface. I didn't know what to do b/c he didn't take me with him. As I was new, it was my first dive, I was afraid & he had promised to hold my hand, being left wasn't something I factored in. So I just held onto the rope, breathed hard, started crying (hard to accomplish in a mask), didn't throw up but wanted to.
Finally slowed it all down. Decided to keep going down the rope. The others were waiting & I felt obliged to keep going. Anyway, I got to the bottom, instructor was all "eh?" in hand signals, I communicated that my buddy was on the surface. the instructor checked my air, gave the OK and off we went. I gripped his hand like a vice.
The dive ended, I was the last in & one of the first out b/c I'd chewed up so much air. When we all got back to the boat, the instructor asked my buddy why he got out. He said he couldn't equalize. No further discussion was entered into. He didn't apologise to me for ditching me on the rope. I did the 2nd dive, which was as fraught as the 1st. Dive buddy sat that one out too.
Anyway. In that kind of scenario, I'd be glad of some feedback on what would have been the correct way for all of us to have handled that situation. ie: the dive buddy, me and the instructor.
Thanks so much for reading this long question!
Ellie
PS: I haven't dived since. The whole experience was terribly unpleasant.
PSS: FWIW former dive buddy & I are not on speaking terms so I won't be sharing anyone's thoughts with him!
Having just scanned through the responses, I'm going to weigh in on a few things I either didn't see mentioned, or that I disagree with.
First ... for Ellie ... a couple of questions.
What is your relationship to the dive buddy? I ask because, as an instructor, I have found that often the most difficult people to buddy up with are people you're involved in a relationship with. There are interpersonal behavior patterns and expectations that tend to get in the way of normal buddy communication ... and often that will lead to confusion once underwater. If your dive buddy is a significant other or family member, my first recommendation is to find a different buddy ... at least for the "learning" phase.
Secondly, was learning how to dive something you desired, or was it something that you got into because someone else wanted you to? Diving is a wonderful activity ... but it's not for everyone, and I get the sense from your posts that you have some pretty serious reservations about doing it. You should only be taking diving lessons because you want to. And if you truly do want to, then all these other concerns you've expressed can be resolved with appropriate training and application.
So let's talk about some of those concerns.
First, you say you have "an irrational fear of running out of air at depth". Let me assure you that there's nothing irrational about that concern ... but it's one that is easily managed. What you need to do is learn how to manage it, and then develop some confidence in your ability to do so. Fears like this typically come from seeing a problem, but not seeing your way to the solution to the problem. A good start is learning HOW to manage your air underwater. For most new divers, starting out by learning to check your pressure gauge frequently is adequate. For some, however, they need to feel more assurance. On my website you'll find an article that explains air consumption for diving. A lot of it will be a bit more than you need to know as a beginner diver, but reading it might give you some information that will help you form your own solutions to managing that particular fear. You can find the article here ...
NWGratefulDiver.com
Next, let's talk about your reference to panic. The urge to bolt to the surface is not uncommon among people who are just learning how to dive ... it's a sign of a healthy sense of survival, in fact. But underwater it can be an unhealthy urge ... and one of the major reasons why you do your initial training in a pool is so that you can overcome that urge before exposing yourself to an open water circumstance, where the repurcussions of panic can become significantly worse. My thinking is that perhaps what you need to do before attempting another open water dive is hire a DM or instructor to spend some more time with you in the pool, working on building up your confidence in handling skills and, basically, "rewiring" your mind's instictive responses to be able to more calmly deal with the expectations of open water diving. I often work with students who need additional pool time ... and usually an extra session or two in the pool is all it takes to overcome the issues that bring about their fear. Perhaps this would also work for you.
As for what happened with your buddy ... first off, because you were in a class the situation you described led to an inherent conflict ... do I stick with my buddy or stick with the instructor? In an entry-level class, the instructor is not supposed to be putting students in a situation where they are faced with making that decision. The instructor should have been close enough to supervise your actions and intervene directly to any potential problems such as buddy separation. You are learning ... and decision-making is a huge part of that process. You made a choice to stick with the instructor, and the instructor made the decision to continue the dive. This is an unusual decision, because if I'm teaching a class and one of the class participants bails on the dive, I would take the entire class back to the surface to ascertain what was going on before deciding to continue. Without being there, I cannot explain why the instructor made the decision that he did ... but reading your comments does make me wonder how the instructor was assured that he didn't have someone on the surface in serious need of assistance ... and why he didn't decide to ascend to find out. As described, I'd question the actions of the instructor to continue the dive.
And to address the title question ... when is it OK for a dive buddy to leave another diver? Well, I'll disagree with those who say never. It's OK to leave a dive buddy when staying with your dive buddy would put you in a situation that threatens your safety. This would include a dive buddy who is diving in an irresponsible manner ... a dive buddy who does not respond properly to an "ascend" signal ... a dive buddy who is diving in a way that causes you stress (for example, someone who you have to struggle to keep up with and doesn't slow down when you signal them to do so) ... or a dive buddy who is simply oblivious to your communications. You leave these dive buddies and ascend to end the dive ... because NOT doing so would put you in a stress cycle that produces an ever-increasing risk of a bad outcome.
Getting back to your situation ... you should have followed your buddy to the surface. When in doubt ... end the dive! In this case, the instructor should have made that call ... but one of the most important lessons to learn in scuba diving is that your instructor isn't responsible for your safety ... you are. If faced with a situation like this again, go to the surface with your buddy ... because they just might need your help to make it back to the boat.
In summary, Ellie, my advice to you is as follows:
- Put some serious thought into why you want to learn to scuba dive.
- If you decide this is something you truly want to do ... and don't allow anyone else but yourself to decide that for you ... then go back to the pool and address your concerns there. Work on identifying what it is that is causing your stress, and stay in the pool until you've developed confidence in your ability to deal with those stress issues. THEN it's time to go apply your skills in the open water.
- Learn how to be more proactive with buddy communication. There's are several good threads on ScubaBoard that address this topic ... here's one that's worth reading ...
http://www.scubaboard.com/forums/ne...g/303962-best-practices-being-good-buddy.html
None of what you've experienced so far is particularly unusual among those who are just learning how to dive ... but we're all unique, and how we deal with these issues is really up to each of us. Above all else, remember that we do this for fun. If it's not fun, you really need to start by asking yourself why ...
... Bob (Grateful Diver)